Days like today leave me with an insatiable desire for you. I can feel you needing. I can feel you missing me. I can feel the desire filling the space between us and it’s pulling us closer and closer together. But there won’t be any actualization of these feelings. We won’t see each other. We won’t spend any time together. In fact, we won’t even speak. So all of this pent up emotion will just leave us wanting something we can’t have. A craving so deep and so pure that it defies logic.
Our cravings have to change I guess. We have to let the craving pass until it doesn’t affect us anymore. We have to deny ourselves the guilty pleasure of our pleasure. We have to not do all of the very things we want to do. You know, we used to joke about these times; we called it my “D*** diet”. 😊 Oh goodness, those were the days. Back then, I always knew my “D diet” would eventually come to an end, and we would indulge ourselves yet again in the love we so enjoyed. But this current diet has to become the painful lifestyle we both have to suffer through for now. Maybe one day it won’t be so painful and the cravings won’t be so strong. For now, I guess all we can do is accept what is and let go of what isn’t.
The Repressed Peach